3rd grade, 7/8 years old, ... i learned so much. i found out what social politics was all about. first time i saw skin color, ... prejudice. honest to goodness, i had not seen any of these things pre 3rd grade. this was big for me.
and i began to let the tomboy in me be seen. i started to choose the clothes i wanted to wear and cut my hair. one teacher loved me for it and one hated me for it. both left emotional scars.
we had a family reunion at a lake. so i go up to the gate to pay to swim. there's a bunch of teenagers, ... a girl is taking the money. i had on a tshirt and cut off jeans, no shoes. she tells me if i will kiss her, ... i get in free. well good lord i wanted to. i'm as cute as i can be. no breasts so i look just like a boy. my short blonde wavey hair, ... kinda looking like leif garrett. i wish i had just kissed her, ... and ran in to swim, ... and let myself float in the water, just feeling the "sigh". but noooo, i ran the other direction. this tells a lot about me, ... later in life.
i had a girl friend in the neighborhood. she would use me for the TOP, ... i let her. we didn't do anything other than me doing what she said, ... lay on top of her.
my first love/crush was a teacher, 4th grade. she was a tough femme. i liked it when she got on to me. and yes, i would get in trouble on purpose.
so many stories. memories.
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