To many times I have sacrificed myself to blend in
been the chameleon to stay under the radar
invisible insignificant
if you can not see me you can not hurt me
I learned early to please and avoid the blows
never quite good enough to be loved or wanted
disposable
if I let the real me show who would want me
was as if only the horses understood
then that to was ripped away
long time spent wandering in the dark
a very lonely boi
but then the shell it cracked
I look in my daughters eyes and see
I can stand
I can be me
strong proud true
I have worth I am amazing
but most of all
I am me
a cowboi
a mother
a lover
a friend