Julien, I can totally get where you're coming from. In the "inbetween" stage myself in a lot of ways. Most of my family gets that I was born in wrong body but only few of them acknowledge it. Same with friends.
Depending on how my hair is cut, I'll either get Sir'ed or Ma'am'ed on a day to day basis. Not sure what the hell makes it one way or the other but I know it has to be more then just the looks. Maybe it's Ma'am when I'm having one of my "pitiful" me days. Lol. Who knows. And for the record I am NOT saying that when I'm all meek and mild that's when folks "see me as a female" so therefore that must be what I'm saying. No. What I am saying is when I carry myself with confidence and look folks in the eye and a square jaw, they tend to stick with their first instinct which is usually Sir. Only if I look away do they then go into the whole, "Oh shit Ma'am, I'm sorry. How can I help you Ma'am?"
Julien, I realize this is a bit off topic but I'm a lil slow sometimes (just ask the wife) and it just now dawned on me that you live very VERY close to 'sational and I. We'd love to get together for coffee sometime if you'd like? I won't be home for at least two more weeks but if you wanted to spend time with "family" before then, 'sational has time on her hands. I'm sure she'd love to meet up for some coffee. She'll take any excuse to drink coffee. Lol. Plus we both don't have a whole lotta rainbow family round here so it'd be pretty bad ass to not only have one but one from here!
No pressure at all. Lol. Just realized that must come across like some sales pitch or something. If so, sorry about that. Just pm one of us if ya want to and if not, totally get it.
As far as the inbetween stage goes, it's here for a while until I get some of my own personal shit squared away. Only way can consciously make decision to be on T and be doing it for the right reasons, i.e. for myself and not so society sees me for who I really am. It does suck sometimes because you're like caught in this midair jump that you can't go back on or finish so you're just left hanging there for now. Eh, that's life. Won't lie though, I do look forward to growing facial hair. Just once. Used to watch Hank (sperm donor whom the state calls my father) shave in the morning and I can remember just being so damn envious. I'm not talking in my teen years either but at the age of three and four. Would slather my face with shaving cream and use this really old shaving kit mom had found at a garage sale and gotten for me. Had no blade in it. God, I think she subconsciously knew even before I did.
Okay, rambled enough for this post. Thanks guys. Julien, let us know either way if you want? Again, no pressure at all. I'm serious.
Brute.
P.S. My wife gets confused when I call her 'sational so I'll just stick with her name, julie.