[WolfyOne]

With the weather changing, it makes me sad to see the kitties in this trailer park that once had homes and are left behind by ignorant owners that decide not to take them with or find new homes for them. Some of them have never had to fend for themselves. a few I know belonged to people that lived here because the males I've been seeing are neutered. It breaks my heart knowing all I can do is feed, talk to and pet the 3 near my trailer that come to me for comfort. They are so darn trusting of me even though they've been cast off. I won't bring them in by me because I have enough going with the rescues I have from another part of OK I lived in before I moved here. Some days I feel overwhelmed with the ones I care for inside. Other days I worry that I'll be able to provide for them. The hardest thing for me is when I know, no matter how hard I try to heal them, I have to have one put down. Last month I had to have 2 put down. One I spent over 6 weeks trying meds to make him better and I hand fed him the entire time. When he stopped drinking water on his own, I had to make a decision that has plagued me since. The other one was one I gave to a neighbor here who told me he got out of her trailer. She had him for a year. One day my ex stopped by when I wasn't home to pick up some tools and spend time with the rescues and she sent me a VM and she was pissed. She had found this cat outside or he found her (she was the one who gained his trust, years ago), two trailers down from mine. He was emaciated when she went down there to get him. He was way past saving and I made the choice to have him put down just to put him out of the misery he was in. I can't and won't take in rescues anymore because it hurts me too much when I have to say good bye. I am not even going to give any more of them away unless someone can prove to me they have the means in which to care for them. These rescues I had, had it rough enough where they came from in the country. Always being shooed away, not knowing where their next meal was coming from. When I and my ex take the time to trap, fix and release to others or keep them, I expect those that take them to give them good loving homes.

BTW, this rant was made because a neutered tiger kitty came up to me while I was putting out broken up tortilla chips and old bread for the birds. Yes, more of God's creations. So, I took him to the food bowl in front of my trailer, but behind a flower pot to make sure he had breakfast in his little belly.