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Random · 03-19-2010, 11:36 AM

Hi... My name is Random and I'm an addict...

So many years since I first said those words..

I have been clean 19 yrs and nine months..
I didn't find out I was expecting until I was three months along..

The FIRST thought in my head after.. *what? what? no.. I have a ut infection and the stomake flu.. It was only ONE time..* was.. What the hell have I done to this kid.. I told the dr every drug I had taken in the last three months, that i was more than a close personal friend with Mr. Coccain and I had eaten mushrooms the night before..

It was a hard call... abortion or keeping him... keeping him or putting him up for adoption..

I chose adoption... I wanted to get back to MY life!!! My girlfriend wanted her girlfriend back.. I could stay clean for 6 months.. I could do what was fair for this life I CHOOSED to bring into this world...

I didn't end up adopting him out... I chose my child over my addiction and my old life... That was my choice... and with that choice I changed my priorites..

For me.... When you bring a life into the world and you make the choice to keep that life... Then you have to try your best to do what is right for that kid...

We, as parents screw up, we screw our kids up.. That's going to happen, because no one is perfect and no one makes the right choices all the time...

But for me.. There are limits and lines... Hard choices we have to make.. Our needs vs what is best for our families..

03-19-2010, 11:36 AM	#83
Random Senior Member How Do You Identify?: femme Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: back in the land of trees and snow Posts: 2,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,017 Thanked 5,327 Times in 1,378 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Addiction/Motherhood/Children welfare.. Hi... My name is Random and I'm an addict... So many years since I first said those words.. I have been clean 19 yrs and nine months.. I didn't find out I was expecting until I was three months along.. The FIRST thought in my head after.. what? what? no.. I have a ut infection and the stomake flu.. It was only ONE time.. was.. What the hell have I done to this kid.. I told the dr every drug I had taken in the last three months, that i was more than a close personal friend with Mr. Coccain and I had eaten mushrooms the night before.. It was a hard call... abortion or keeping him... keeping him or putting him up for adoption.. I chose adoption... I wanted to get back to MY life!!! My girlfriend wanted her girlfriend back.. I could stay clean for 6 months.. I could do what was fair for this life I CHOOSED to bring into this world... I didn't end up adopting him out... I chose my child over my addiction and my old life... That was my choice... and with that choice I changed my priorites.. For me.... When you bring a life into the world and you make the choice to keep that life... Then you have to try your best to do what is right for that kid... We, as parents screw up, we screw our kids up.. That's going to happen, because no one is perfect and no one makes the right choices all the time... But for me.. There are limits and lines... Hard choices we have to make.. Our needs vs what is best for our families.. __________________ ~Volunteer~ "It gets in your blood"