[LoyalWolfsBlade]

The fact that I am not sleeping is on my mind and why I am not sleeping is right behind it. I did not think the holidays would hit me like this. I knew it would be difficult but not like this. This will be my first Thanksgiving completely alone and it is eating me up inside even though I keep trying to push it out of my mind. I cam back to this stupid because 1) I had no choice and 2) I believed my sisters lies that the family missed me and wanted me home. Yeah they miss me so much and want me home so much not one of the three that live in this city has bothered to invite me to dinner. Wanted me so much when I called and asked my sister tonight if I could come over to see my grand-nephew I was told flat out your not welcome here....
I do have things to be thankful for...I am alive for one...I have a meet wonderful people on this site...and of course now I have my girl to be thankful for....I am trying to be positive it just gets hard sometimes.....