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Originally Posted by Sachita

Oh I'm not hard on myself any more. My main agenda is my health and being strong enough to do the things I really want to do. I'm totally fine with my big round ass and chunky thighs. I just like to keep my weight down for health reason and watch my sugar.

I spent most of my life beating myself and trying to be good enough. Those days are fucking over. I notice that the happier I am, the more baggage I let go of the weight comes off and I feel lighter.

I hear you. I was real hard on myself for years because I would yo-yo with weight. Now quite frankly, I don't give a fuck what I weigh I care about how I feel and I feel sexy. The end. If I eat crap or too many carbs, I pay for it because I dont feel well, so I get back on track. There are certain things that are total sabotage to my feeling good with food so I avoid them. Its very mental now.

Bottom line is my body is strong, when I work I often get slammed busy and have to keep up with guys who are linebacker types. We have to program our focus to work hard for 8-16 hours, lift things that most people would not touch, endure extreme temps high and low, and just get slammed. Everyone is expected to keep up just as an athlete is expected to keep up. So there it only makes sense to eat well and prepare for that type of a workout. Where I slack is when I am exhausted and crave carbs. Knowing this will be a lifelong challenge makes it easier on me mentally. Having fresh vegetables, nuts, dried fruit on hand to snack on takes the edge off if I see myself heading toward a bagel when I should really be eating a lean protein and some vegetables. Live and learn.