Approaching the 72hr mark. It's hard. They say to identify your triggers and make changes around those but I find this impossible. There are too many. Mornings and late nights are hardest for me. I think because I am sleepy and my defenses are lessened. Last night, after I went to bed, I was craving so hard that I said "fuck it" and actually got up and dressed, bundled up and went out toward the car with intention to go buy some. I stood there with keys in hand, hesitated and agonized, then went back inside and took off my shoes and coat. Then I put them back on and did the same thing two more times before I finally came back in and put myself back to bed, having not smoked.
Having not smoked.
I am a non-smoker. I can do this. I release all of my attachments to addiction and all the emotions, insecurities, and anxieties that I associate with quitting.
