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Senior Member
How Do You Identify?:
A Lady..Femme..Free Spirit with a touch of survivalist woman in me.
Preferred Pronoun?:
Spiritual Warrior..She Ra..Baby Doll, or anything close..ha!
Relationship Status:
In perfect love and perfect trust I believe that will be directed..for now Just friends in my life.
Join Date: Mar 2010
Location: Live in Utah but take trips to Arkansas. Plan to move there eventually.
Posts: 2,579
Thanks: 11,073
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Originally Posted by Ms. Meander
This is my 50th time! I was quit for a the year 2009, and for 6 weeks last winter (taught myself to crochet!), and numerous less successful times before, in between, and since. I've cut down from a pack a day, to half a pack, to 1/3. I've got so many tools and coping skills in my arsenal, it's ridiculous. And I'm a little embarrassed - but that's why I'm talking about it. Shame has no place here, and it will just make me want to smoke more. This is totally a psychological issue for me. I've done so much growth and healing, but cigarettes have been my only constant since I was a teenager. Even though I hate smoking, it's like the death of a beloved friend. There. I said it. It's really feels that dramatic. Maybe I need to allow myself to grieve the loss of this companion that saw me through so much, while recognizing I don't need it anymore, and letting go...
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My every move used to be centered around such companion...I would not go places or do things if that meant no smoking. Seriously.
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Believe what people show you the first time.
It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth!
~*~ Author unknown ~*~
When negative thoughts come to mind,
Let them die stillborn.
Speak and do posotive in any situation,
And watch your dreams grow and flurish.
If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up.
Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow.
See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it!
~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~
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