[TheMerryFairy]

Ringing in the new year is always bitter sweet for me.

The way my life has shifted from one year into the next is always semi intense. It's not necessarily a bad thing, it's just hard for me to pick a focus when change is constant. I tend to make resolutions with good intentions on keeping them only to find myself breaking up with them a month or two later.
This is particularly frustrating for me because self care is major priority to me - whether it's physical, emotional or spiritual.

I've had some time to think about this in preparation for this evening and I've simply concluded that I cannot just make a resolution for the "upcoming year". I have to devote myself to something long term as well.

Here's what I've come up with.
- To leave the situation I'm in. I love my partner dearly, I just can't continue to love somebody who doesn't love me with the same respect or depth.
- Allow myself to indulge once in awhile. I don't want to go back to the days of complete impulse buying for stuff I don't need, but I DO want to feel like I deserve to treat myself.
- Let my freak flag fly. I've been confined way too long. It's time to feel free. I make my own decisions. Oh and nobody gets access to my closet ever again. You embrace me for who I am or you get shown the door.
- No more negativity. I'm not talking about somebody having a bad day, or myself having a string of bad days. I mean that rotten soul crushing negativity that makes your entire self tingle. I cringe at the sight of drama.
- I'd like to learn meditation on a higher level to keep myself at peace & find a way to connect to my spiritual side.
- I'm committing myself to being more active in the community & to educate myself on how to get involved with some of the issues our brothers and sisters are facing.
- I believe that life is about the adventure. My last resolution is to enjoy new experiences I've been wanting to have or those I didn't realize I wanted to try out, but waited on somebody else to share them with me.