[JustLovelyJenn]

Being a parent is whats on my mind.

Its one of the most wonderful and most challenging experiences in my life. I cherish and value my children and their well being above anything else in this world. But there are days that my challenges with my son make me so sad. Its so hard to understand why things are the way they are for him. So hard to come to terms with the facts. That he will never been like other kids. He will always struggle to have friends. He will never quite understand the social constructs of the world around him. He will always fight against the rules...

As a mom its so hard to know I have to have locks and alarms on the doors and cabinets in my house. That I must run my house like a school with unbendable rules and expectations. That sometimes I must do things that make him cry.

Today I have to take away all of his toys. Clean his room of everything he enjoys, and then allow him to slowly earn back the things he loves. He made enough bad choices in a row to require this extreme punishment and it hurts my heart.

This is what is on my mind right now.