[dixie]

Originally Posted by Dude

I am doing it with e cigs.
For two weeks I've been weaning myself down off the real shit.
If all goes well today will be my first day of no real ones.
I learned the hard way that I cant have emergency cigarettes around .Period.
That would be like quitting drinking and having an emergency
bottle up in the cupboard I would have never got sober like that.
But I had to try it, yes I did.


Sooo much harder than quitting drinking.
The e cigs are taking the edge off but
the emotional
( OMG Your best friend, your constant source of stuffing
emotions is fucking outta yeah?!!!!REALLY?)
stuff is surfacing.

I am also worried about my personality changing
because I don't feel "right".... snort

I am different with the "emergency" stash. I have the rest of the last pack of Marlboros I bought before the hospital (about 9 cigs) in my purse. My personality is a bit off. If I do not have any, then my mind tells me that the only reason I am not smoking is because I am out. Since I DO have some in my purse, my mind is telling me that I am not smoking because I CHOOSE not to smoke. (See? Odd mind I have lol)

As for personality, I understand about not feeling "right." I have been one cranky cruel bitch, and I still don't recommend looking at me the wrong way. LOL Needless to say, I am hoping it's just the lack of cigs and that I am not really this much of a bitch and just never noticed it before lol