[Gemme]

Originally Posted by dixie

Compatibility and desire....and how exactly those will play into my next romantic venture....if and when the next occurs. I usually deny myself one or the other, for one reason or another. Not again. I have no plans on "settling". I know what I want. I will settle for no less.

Originally Posted by Kenna

is there really such a thing as peace of mind?

Originally Posted by dixie

Have you ever had a day when you just wanted to get away? Not just a mini-break or vacation...away from all that you are? I have those from time to time. Today is one of them. I'd like to step out of myself, out of my life. Just be someone else, or even better, no one...just for a little while. Almost a sort of mental holiday, I would say. Just...a break. No worries, no fears, no longings, no desires. Nothing negative, just neutral. Just for a short time......

I don't have these days much anymore. Once in a long while, in a blue moon. Yet today I'm having one.

Maybe it's just me.

Originally Posted by Uniqueswtfemm

Om my mind..

Waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Originally Posted by IslandScout

On my mind...

thinking about the frozen-in-time aspect of online communities. Love is documented in all its phases, from discovery to disentangling. Arguments can be revisited, jokes relived.

Originally Posted by KCBUTCH

keep on keeping on doll-"YOUR" journey only needs to be your own. let your truth guide you, once you set the intention the universe will do the rest, just keep doing what you do. you are a blessing

Originally Posted by DamonK

Plans slowly coming together. A little more one day at a time. Cautious excitement building as a result. And dreams.

All of these above quotes have something that strikes a chord for me with recent experiences I've had and/or am going through right now.

I feel that I am on a new road. One free and clear of mental and emotional debris and one that lacks roadblocks and hazards. I believe that the past couple of months especially, though difficult, have shown me what I need to see to move past shadows and darkness and into the proverbial light.

I see truths that were not evident to me previously and, though it's not ideal, I can work with what has been given to me. I'm stronger than I gave myself credit for and I can move beyond these temporary setbacks to gain greater insight into myself as well as those around me.

This too shall pass. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Insert your cliche of preference here.

I'm 'that' sort. The sort to wait for Unique's same shoe. But maybe it doesn't have to fall. Maybe it's fine where it is, wherever that may be. Maybe I don't even need that damn shoe. Maybe barefoot is the way to go.

The past few days have allowed me the chance to step outside of myself. Outside of limitations placed on me, both by others and myself. I dropped into a world of possibilities and I'm hopeful.

Like dixie, I won't settle. Not this time. Big girl panties are fully engaged and ready for pulling, should the need arise. But I don't think so. I think we'll be fine. This feels fine. This feels good.

I don't want to follow old patterns and behaviors and don't feel as if I am. At least not internally. So, what's different? What makes THIS situation different than previous ones? Me? Them? Both?

I can breathe. Fear is minimized. Obstacles dealt with openly and honestly. Maybes and what ifs have made their way into the recesses of my crotchety old brain. Could bes and why nots have followed.

For the first time in a while, I feel free. Freedom is the greatest gift one can give to another and I feel very rich right now.

Originally Posted by Cowboi

Today is my Momma's Birthday. She would have been 91. She has been gone from this world for almost 20 years come this March. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I have never gotten over it.

I love you Momma........
Your Tomboy

My mom's birthday was the 24th. Maybe they're sharing a cake.

Originally Posted by dixie

I am so tired. I could say I don't sleep good, but at this point I pretty much don't sleep at all. I toss and turn and flop around so bad that pretty much everything on the bed ends up on the floor, including the bottom sheet. Restless shit. I'm TIRED of being TIRED.

Originally Posted by kittygrrl

how about some hot chocolate? turkey? chocolate cupcake (this works for me)??

Warm soymilk?