[Sachita]

For way too many years I was in that whole trap thinking I had to be dressed or be a certain way to be desired. Way to many. I was my own damn contradiction because I played the game and then talked about how free I was as a woman. I wasn't really free.

Now I am REALLY free. I still have a few issues to work on but I am far removed from most standards- thank goodness!

I'm not sure I even want to be sexy per se. I want to be beautiful. The damn package beautiful. When someone looks at me that are enthralled with the woman I am no matter the color of my hair or the size of my ass.

I look at these messages on facebook from the 30 something crowd, mostly on Mia's mothers wall and I just shake my head. I'm so glad that all is behind me.

Thank you all for your replies. I'm going to hate the growing out phase and hope I can hold out. Who know.. I may show up at the reunion with my salt and pepper sporting my levi's and cowboy boots. Yeehaw