[MsTinkerbelly]

Originally Posted by MsTinkerbelly

Well I have indeed survived, but I cannot say the grief has become less; different, but not less. I still have such anger at my Mother for smoking and causing her health issues, with a seeming disregard of the people left to grieve. But yet, i have started to really think of her as a "person" and not just my Mom, and I have begun the process of forgiveness finally.

I miss her every day, but I try to think of the good memories now instead of the last years where the hospital and worry became my best friends. I know that in time I will carry her in my heart as a part of who I have become because of her, and every day when I think of her it will be only with love.

I forgot to mention (and I was asked), that May 22nd will be 3 years since my mom passed and still this processing continues. Makes you wonder if it ever ends?