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Originally Posted by Cid
I really appreciate everyone's help here. It's so great to know that when I'm not sure about something, I can come here and get the help that I'm looking for.
The thing I should explain too is that I haven't always been gay. I never felt it or acted on it until I turned 40. It was at that time that the man who molested me (I don't even remember how long it went on for because I blocked it out) died. And when that happened everything that I kept back for so many years came out. It started with anxiety and followed up with depression. After coming out of that (with medication) things began to change. I never wanted sex with my husband and I felt like I was very much alone. It was then that a woman came into my life and turned it upside down. I fell deeply in love with her and felt more secure than I've ever felt with anyone. Funny thing is that I never even had sex with her. It was just a feeling of belonging.
That didn't work out, but my marriage ended and I found someone else. That lasted 7 years off and on. But for most of that time I felt like I wasn't with the person that I fit with.
Now I'm left standing here wondering where I fit and not knowing how to get there. I've been to psychiatrists and they were all useless. They push the meds but don't really help with the work.
This is pretty much my last resort. This woman is someone my friend has studied under before and she's quite accurate on many things. A girl at work went to see her and the psychic told her that she would be pregnant in 38 or 39 weeks. This girl isn't married and was trying NOT to get pregnant. She was pregnant in 38 weeks exactly.
Thanks so much for your input. And peachypie, I will look up that link, thank you.
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I can identify with all of that Cid, the feeling of belonging, the disillusion with mainstream professionals, the turning to something you don't understand as a last resort and feeling uncertain. I've been in all those places. And you are more than welcome.
Your journey now finds you dipping your toe into the realms of what some people call Energy Medicine. If you are interested in science, Rupert Sheldrake, Masaru Emoto, Candace Pert, David R Hamilton, Larry Dossey, Bruce Lipton, are just a few of the Drs and scientists I can think of off the top of my head who are out there investigating and talking about this approach to health and wellbeing. If you prefer a more esoteric approach, Eckhart Tolle, Anita Moorjani and Shakti Gawain may be worth a look. I personally like a bit of both.
Re. the anxiety/depression/medication St John's Wort is a herbal remedy that can be pretty good for that. Apparently it is prescribed by GPs in Germany but in England you need to buy it over the counter. It has been very effective for me for both periods of anxiety and depression. I did some research on dosage trials and chose to take a higher dose than stated on the pack. There is at least one St John's Wort discussion board I know of and that had some useful info. on.
Peace from Peachy ;-)