[KCBUTCH]

"How is it that my heart still beats for her, yet is broken by her.
What is it that makes my body begs to fill the spaces she once filled?
How does one walk, when choking on the ghostly fumes of love lost?
Why do you remain? I lie motionless beneath my pain, reaching for her to return, while screaming out to keep her away?
How is it that the story of growing old together left behind only me to walk, to weep, to run?
I miss you, I don't know how to stop loving you. I know how to go on blankly, but that is not living...There is this hole you see, the hole that steals my thoughts, a thief of joy, a killer of love. An empty shell of suffocation. Where I stagger to my feet, where my footing isn't sure, steady only in confusion. Where I stand tall, begin to step and collapse in on myself.
How is it that this thing I clearly see faults in still seems like worthy treasure?
I long for the day when you are no longer there to tease and taunt my soul...
When my words are not stories of us, When my eyes are clear not wet with tears. When I can take a deep breathe to clear my mind not catch up to myself.
A time when I lay my head down there will be peace, there will be letting go, there will be ME, not you, not us..."- (ME 2/19/13)