Apocalipstic,
I am right there with you. Everything you are doing, I am too with one exception - the work. My blood sugars today were over 200. So, I am taking double my meds, per doctor orders. We are hoping that this helps.
As for forgiveness, it is easier to type and say the word than to actually do it. The process. Sometimes the pain is just too overwhelming for me to handle mentally. It just is. No amount of talking about it does much good. Confrontation is out. I just want to be. As simple as it sounds, sometimes it is so very hard to achieve. I know that the simplier the life the better. But when it comes to the mental issues of forgiveness, I have no answers. I pray and mediatate. I hope that God helps me overcome my negativity. I want nothing more than that. But again, easier said than done.
Namaste,
Andrew
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