Haven't posted here in a while...
After struggling on my own for the better part of 2012, I went back to my weight loss doc and am definitely back on track. I've lost all the weight I regained last year plus some and for the first time in a very long time am really feeling better about myself. I'm way smaller than I was at this time last year. And while I still have those days where I need to hide in the safety of my "fat clothes" I'm more often than not wearing clothes that fit. That feels really good and makes me feel good. In fact, I'm feeling so much better that I finally put a pic in the gallery. Not a great one but at least it's not too scary...LOL
My biggest challenge these days isn't eating too much or the wrong things. Rather it is remembering to eat...I just can't handle breakfast any more and since work has been so crazy I struggle to remember to eat lunch even if it is only a container of fat-free plain Greek yogurt. Weekends are really hard because my routine is different. Most of the time I won't eat until late in the day. Yesterday I forgot to eat period and have only had black coffee so far today. I'm hungry but just not able to handle anything right now. It doesn't make me sick or anything like that...I'm just not interested yet. Not even in one of those 80 calorie yogurts. I find myself struggling to finish one and that's always a good thing. I've noticed that it's gotten more difficult to put much on my tummy these days...I get full so fast...almost as if I'd had the surgery or a band, which I haven't.
On the plus side the weight is coming off quickly and it won't be long before I will be unable to wear any of my remaining security blanket clothes. I actually had a pair of shorts, my fav for hanging around the house, fall down the other day...LOL They've since been retired. My rings have gotten very loose to the point that one fell off my hand earlier this week. Looks like I'll be getting out the tape.
I am drinking a lot of water and have increased my activity...that may have something to do with this. I'll see my doc in 2 weeks and, if this is still going on, will discuss it with him. It's not like my old eating disorder behavior in that it's not a purge, punishment or control issue. I'm not having any depression and while work is crazy my stress levels are very low. I'm just not getting hungry enough to eat regularly. I'm supposed to have 800 - 1000 cal/day but the reality is I'm lucky to take in half of that. Physically and mentally I feel wonderful so I'm thinking it's just a phase and will pass. But in the meantime, I'm pleased that I'm losing and getting closer to the goal I set for myself for this year.
But I'm wondering if anyone else has ever had this problem?
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