My mind is filled with much more peace tonight.
It was a very difficult day and thankfully my body shutting down after the internship was a positive thing. I awoke grogged, but in a better frame of mind.
I also have decided to jump from the frying pan into the fire. The boss made life difficult today...tonight I decided to walk right into it. Upon waking, I texted and asked to go in tomorrow despite the really bad day I had today.
Today was the first time my body has shut down like that...immediately upon arriving home. I walked in, emptied my pockets, grabbed a sandwich, went to my recliner, gulped down the sandwich, didn't even finish my milk and I crashed for 3 hours!! I woke up disoriented and very groggy. Once I got up and took the dog out I felt a lot better and was able to figure out that I need to walk into the fire instead of shirking away from it.
Much of life has been quite paradoxical for me lately. I am glad the path is becoming much clearer even if it is extremely stressful.
I did talk to my supervisor today about the available position. Assistant counselor starts at $26/hr. Much better than the offer the HR Dept gave me before. After 2 years I could then get more licensures and receive much more pay as well as an increase to Counselor. It pays much better than the Vocational Rehabilitation Counselor position with the state, but state benefits...ahhh the choices..We will see. My path will be revealed to me...of that I am sure!
That is what is on my mind.
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