[dixie]

I cuss too much, but usually don't care.

I am picky about food. (Although there is an actual reason for this, but I don't usually talk about it, nor do I know exactly how to fix it even though I would like to.)

I tell bad/off-color/gross jokes. I have an odd sense of humor. I use humor at the wrong times or in the wrong ways, to try to cover up my own feelings, no matter the situation or subject matter.

I am sometimes too shy and awkward. (Sometimes comes from my social phobias, sometimes comes from nervousness that is caused by good things...either way has a negative effect.)

I lash out at people when I am hurt/angry/not feeling *heard*.

I don't always know how to communicate my feelings until it is too late and it boils over into anger or hurt feelings.

If I am hurting, I want to hurt others. (Emotionally, not physically.)

I have serious issues of self-worth that need to be worked on.

I try so hard to be perky and cheery, when in reality, I am a very unhappy person. I just really don't like for people to know that, because there is nothing worse to me than the look of pity on someone's face.

I do not love myself, but rather, loathe myself on a level that would scare most people. (Another thing that needs to be worked on.)

I know my faults, most of them anyway. But I do not know how to fix a lot of them. Or am afraid to try, because I am afraid of failure. Which is a fault in itself.