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I received a call today regarding the follow-up on my in-depth eye examination. I qualify for blind services because of the impact on other medical conditions. I need to meet with them Tuesday to discuss options such as surgical, patching the bad eye to reduce strain (causes severe migraines-- patching or eliminating use of the eye that doesn't work will reduce/eliminate these), and blind training (cane, Braille, independent living without the use of my limited vision, and other possibilities) have been opened to me. What a relief! It also strengthens my legal case being handled by my lawyers for disability. Additionally, it permits me training options so I can return to work in the future. Not sure how long my ego/pride can handle not working.

My eyes, I'm told, are one of my best features. It's a shame they're so 'broken". Sometimes, they ache so badly that I just close them and maneuver without them; I've become quite proficient at moving around in total darkness. Some days, those pretty blue orbs aren't much more than face decoration.

BUT, doctors told my dad I'd likely be blind by the time I was 20. I'm 40 and still have decent vision in one eye. Not bad. Maybe I'll piss off the all-knowing specialists entirely and keep what little vision I have for another 20 years. :-P