Thanks everyone for your honest and...well raw (?) responses. Maybe I'm the one who feels raw, who knows.
I have all Taylor's things still out, some in baggies (I am preserving her smell....which is part of what happened with the hair...I took a wiff..oy). I have her two favorite toys out next to her wooden urn....Holly - one is a small Raven's football.
I used to take her toy every day and kiss her box with it, just like we used to do kissie face with it...she loved that. This all will sound pretty awful to people who have no clue what we all are going through with the loss of our babies. (I still do kissie face sometimes LOL)
My new pup Foster is very tolerant of all this, like he knows....but he's a special boy and senses everything....which is good and bad
Thanks for the safe space to write and read. I have come and read all your stories, not often in the last year because it dredged up my horrible grief, but I have read them.
I think we're all special people to allow these special loving animals in our hearts and souls....
That would make me smile on some days I guess.
Bless you all, really, and thanks again for being here.
-Moonie