I'm not looking for advice or suggestions; I just want to share how I feel today.
I have lost almost 15% of my body weight, lowered my cholesterol more than 40 points, and I am no longer pre diabetic.
I feel great about my success, but
I still don't feel like fat is bad and thin is good and
I still don't believe in unhealthy unbalanced diets.
I am having a lot of feelings about the changes in my body.
More people are noticing me in public places, mostly men.
I am middle aged, and it's middle aged men who look over and look away.
Nobody's been aggressive, but I am aware of the attention.
I'm also feeling sad. I've had to get rid of a lot of clothing, and
I miss my pretty things. I only wore my pretty bathing suit once or twice, and
It's way too baggy on me.
I can hardly lift the contractor's black plastic bag of clothing that I have to bring to a thrift store.
I've always loved clothing, and I have always worn stylish outfits, my own style, I mean.
I have never been shy about wearing miniskirts and sleeveless tops and beautiful underthings.
I have spent a lot of time looking for clothing I like online, and
Now, I don't even know what size I wear.
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