[Andrew, Jr.]

Crowds are ok. It just depends on who is there in the crowd. You know what I mean. If it is strangers, then no. For example, I am not into going clubbing like I was when I was a teenager. I would rather watch a ball game on TV. Or grill outside on my deck, smoke a cigar, and talk with my neighbors. I am at a point in my life that I no longer take things for granite. My home is my castle type of thing. I love it.

My father is my abuser. I can tell him something and he will go off on me for no reason at all. He is just a mean-spirited elderly man. His joy is ranting and raving about my mistakes in life starting when I was 5 yo. Yep. He goes back that far. When I tell people about my abuser I always say the phrase "crazy as a fox". It is the only way to describe him. He is smart, but nuts. I pity him, and pray for him. That is all that is left to do.

Tony,

I am glad you got your sponsor involved. Good for you!

Apocalipstic,

I have no idea about switching doctors. I am not a good one to ask. You know I just have no more strength or belief in anyone in the medical community because of my past history with doctors and therapists and their betrayal of my trust.

Shug,

I am happy to hear the news about your aunt. That is a positive step!

I think we all go thru the ups and downs in life. It is a rollercoaster. And finding that even keel is just hard work. Some days it is perfect, and others it is just a struggle and fight to get to Point A, and forget about Point B. Take your vitamins, and meds, say your prayers, and go for it. At least that is what I do. All the glory goes to God for keeping me alive this long.

Much love and peace to everyone,
Andrew, living 1 day at a time