[JustLovelyJenn]

I am wondering how it is that people find it so hard to believe who I say I am. I understand that this world is full of people who say what they do not mean, I even understand that many of us have been lied to so much it is simply inexcusable. Somehow, it still shocks me when they really cant see me.

I am different from so many people. In many ways I know my differences are my biggest downfall. I trust, no matter how many times I have been lied to I still trust. I forgive, no matter the severity of the transgression I believe in giving people an honest second chance. And I love, so completely, so deeply, that people seem to find it impossible.

Is it so impossible to imagine that I can love someone to the extent that no matter what side of them I see that love is still the same? That I can except any change in them simply because it is still them? That once I let someone through that door, once I let them into my heart, until they truly push me away I will still love them the same? Even then, when they push so hard that I have to let go the love never leaves. I still love them. I may allow them to leave, I may move on with my life, but that love for them will never be gone. They hold a piece of my heart forever. They become a part of me.

This love, this honest unconditional love is not a reaction of fear, its not a rash untried belief. It is just a part of who I am. I don't know how to love any less. It truly is all or nothing. If I love you I love all of you. Whether I take you into my arms as my family, my friend, or my love, I love you completely.