[s0litude]

I miss...

• my innocence
• the feel of childhood when there was no pressure, only opportunities to play, to find new adventures
• family members: my older sister, Kim; my grandmothers and grandfathers; my great aunts and great uncle
• North Carolina, the sights and smells of home
• Spending time with my dad-- sitting quietly, watching tv, not saying a word and feeling as though we had the BEST time together doing absolutely nothing-- I enjoyed every moment of it and look forward for the chance to do that again
• Watching my nephews grow up-- I wanna see those little boys become young men all over again and again and again
• Long, slow, deep, meaningful kisses; holding hands and tracing my thumb along the backs of her knuckles... "Her", wherever she is, when I find her
• my grandmother's chicken casserole and home-made brittle fudge-- the recipes were lost with her passing
• music, the rush of performing on stage or on the football field during marching band performances
• feeling as though there's a point to the chaos we call life