[peachy]

My ex husband apologised for the way he has treated me this week and said he will always love me. I wish his feelings about me didn't affect me so much but they do. He's the closest family/friend I have aside from our daughter. So glad the air is cleared.

I came out to my mum today so that's a relief. She didn't say wow that's great but she didn't say eew either. I'm guessing she thinks it's just a phase but so what it's a big weight off my shoulders anyway, and I can honestly say that I don't care what she thinks, if she can't see how what's good about it, she is missing out on something, not me.

I keep crying every time anyone is nice to me which feels awful and is inconvenient but maybe it's a sign I'm letting go of the last 4 years at last and can soon start afresh.

Grateful that even though it's tough I haven't had a drink for over a year, and when I wondered yesterday about drowning my sorrows the thought of the taste of alcohol made me think eugh...

Glad that even though I have been feeling really unstable I don't need to take those gross antidepressants and the herbal remedies seem to be just about holding the beast at bay. I must be at least 40% better than I used to be so that's a major improvement and you can't unlearn what you learnt so the only way is up.