[Lady Pamela]

I wanted to say congrats to those still not smoking!

Also that I am sorry for such a long span of no contact.
Things have been a little crazy in my world lately.
But still smoke free. smiles

I need to say that I have had so many things thrown my way this month that I have felt weak at times. Just being honest.

I have had some spurts of bad health. But I am on the climb.
My daughter went in for 4 biopsies yesterday and we will get results within 7 days.
My friends mom which is like an adpoted mom to me, found out today she may have lukemia and we are waiting for her results.
A very dear friend is in the hospital having cancer removed tomorrow.
And a very dear friend/family member went in for a shoulder sugery this last week and is FOR NOW, paralized and a colapsed lung due to someones mess up. But the lung is getting better and we are waiting for the rest to follow.

I also am looking at another xray to see if my lung nodules have increaded and if so that will me a biopsy.
I believe that will be done next week. If I am not at hospital with my daughter.
So needless to say...Anxiety has been pretty consistant. But still haven't smoked.

When things get rough like this, it reminds me of how strong I truely am.
It used to be that I would smoke like a chimney through hard times.

I have decided if it gets bad to where I want to crack, I will get a no nicotine vapor smoke or something.

The doc said it wouldn't harm me if I did.

But that is as a last resort...Don't need it today.

Anyways, I am only human and doing the best I can.
Will keep posting as well.

Keep up the good work and I am really happy and proud for those of you who have chosen to quit and live longer.

Have a great week!



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