Hi there,
was curious if anyone went through this aspect of transitioning too...
I have someone in my life who is extremely supportive, and he is actively calling me "he", and "sir" and "young man". So for the first time I'm kinda experimenting with what that feels like for me.
Right now I feel "out of body" with it. I feel angry when someone refers to me as a women, but better and neutral when someone calls me he (unless they truly don't know I'm a female, then I'm really happy). I don't know if that makes any sense.
I guess my question would be, how did it happen that people would refer to you by your preferred/true gender? How did you feel when they started calling you he instead of she, or she instead of he? Who did you tell first? Very curious about anything to do with that experience.
I keep comparing myself to other ftm's I've been acquainted with, they've known since birth and always felt comfortable...from 0-18 though I was raised by grandparents that didn't allow for expression at all, so I'm just now getting to know myself. I actually feel a bit scared when this person calls me he. I don't want to let this person down when he's all sayin "I know your a man". It feels great to hear it, but it also makes me nervous too. Anyone who is now transitioned ever experience that?
There's 19million questions in here, don't think I can help it though lol.
Take care,
-psykbutch
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