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Old 10-04-2013, 01:35 AM   #18
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I was reminded today of the time thing - how I can get engrossed in life and forget that time has gone by and I haven't reached out and made necessary contact with those I care about. My grandmother sent a message through my mom that she misses me. I used to have a regular habit of going to Austin, spending the evening with a dear friend, sleeping on her floor, getting up the next day and calling my grandmother to volunteer to bring her and my grandfather a surprise lunch. I did this every month or two. Then a year ago, in the aftermath of many changes and the suicide of a mutual young friend, that friendship just burned down entirely. So I stopped this ritual and never replaced it. And so I've only seen my grandparents at family gatherings over the past year. Part of it's just the sheer cost of gas, and maybe a little is how grumpy my now dementia-riddled, bed-ridden grandfather is, but I love them both and yet I have not been there like I intended to be lately.

So I'm making plans to visit them in a few weeks' time.

Otherwise, my biggest challenges right now are mostly dealing with my house and organization and messiness. I'm happily in a job now that works way better for my brain. It's a reminder that sometimes a job that sucks is a job that sucks, and adhd may not be the entire reason you might find yourself miserable. I love my job now - thank goodness and knock on wood. This last year, I've really had to prove myself capable to myself. ADHD or not, I'm a capable person. I may not live a life that makes utter and total sense to people who have a higher degree of executive function, but I get by in my way. I'm really trying a bit harder to see the positives in my life instead of criticizing myself for not being perfect - whatever perfect actually is.
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