What is on my mind?
That I have an appointment with my hospice doctor tomorrow afternoon. I get to tell him that I have taken a higher dose of my morphine pills that is prescribed.
I am so not looking forward to telling him this. Will he yell at me? Or be pissed off at me? No. As he and all the doctors at the hospice are very understanding to me and my pain. Why have I taken more pills? Because I am in P-a-i-n! I am sick to death of being in pain from my tumor! They will be putting me of methadone tomorrow. I don't really have any high hopes in this new drug working for my pain. As nothing really has over the five years I had my awful pain.
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