Wiping the slate clean
I have never broken the law or injured another person in any way other than saying hurtful things to others in my life. I have battled a fierce and volcanic temper most of my life until now, and it took many years to get a handle. The reason is because I spent many years fighting for my life (because of things you never want to know.) And if you think you may have a hunch, you don't don't. What I went through in my life is as unspeakable as it is unheard of. I did meet a few nice people along the way...but also met people I never want to think about again.
I'm friendly, but I'm conditioned and a very hard man, from circumstances, other than when I keep things light or exchange with those whom I love and respect in close relationships. Then, I am gentle.
I'm not a liar, a con or untrustworthy—I'm loyal to a fault with proof. But people have unfairly speculated about me without ever giving me the benefit of the doubt or bothering to get to know me. I know what it is to be unfairly accused of things based on misinformation, gossip and heresay. No one knows who I am except for my family and a handful of lifelong friends who know me personally offline. I've weathered this many times in addition to taking on a motherlode of the unspeakable in my private life. But I survived, often times, holding on by a thread and with God's help. Sometimes, I think I should write a book about beating the unbeatable.
Trust me when I say, I have been through severe and rare situations that no one wants to know about...ever. They've impacted and changed me. And those few who are strong enough to know are understanding, supportive and very close to me—it's a close network of wonderful friends.
I am evasive and I prefer to be a loner, touching base when necessary and only when people, whom I trust, contact me. I give and contribute to others, but only from afar. I've changed and evolved drastically. But this way of life is finally coming to a close and time is running short before I begin a new life else where and put these years behind me. I am grateful, happy and profoundly moved by what I will begin. I won't divulge any more; I choose to keep the details of these things private. The point is that there is always hope for the good no matter how difficult life is. I hope this serves as encouragement.
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