I wrote you a letter today….but, I remember and know that I used to write to you “this way” as well…and I don’t do that so much anymore…the excuse of not much time or too busy - is just that - an excuse…and I apologize for that…so, why do I write today? Is it a special occasion or your birthday or our anniversary? No… its just an ordinary Sunday afternoon…but, as I was thinking about you - how much I love you-I realized that no day is ever “just ordinary” anymore - because every day I wake up and know that I love you and you love me - is made extraordinary by that fact alone…so, I took pen and paper in hand and wrote - and now, I write here….but how do you fill up an ocean’s depth (which is endless) worth of feelings in just a few lines. It’s impossible - and I suppose that very thought is what keeps songwriters and poets writing and keeps men like me - keep buying them - to somehow one day capture the perfect phrase or the perfect word that will describe everything you think and feel about the woman you love…because it always seems that there should just be “more” somehow than “i love you”….and yet, those words that phrase is indeed timeless no matter what words we put before it or after it and “with” it - it is still those words…i. love.you. that makes the heart stop momentarily or beat faster…those words that make you smile in the deepest part of your heart and soul - those words that just yes - make your mouth go dry and your unable to speak - and your palms are sweaty and your heart races….it does all those things and more…and it is for me to tell you - that it didn’t just happen the first time you told me or after three months when you told me - or after a year when you told me - it happens every time you tell me….and in case you needed or wanted to know - it happened again last night when you told me - it doesn’t matter where we are - or what we are talking about... if we are quiet with one another or if we are laughing about something we are watching on tv - or discussing a book we’ve read or something someone said - when you pause and you say in that quiet soft wonderful voice… “i love you” - my world both stops and begins in your eyes and in your voice and in your heart…and today - I wanted you to know that it doesn’t just happen “sometimes” - but every.time…I have never in my life experienced such depth of love and wonderment as I do with you…you are as I have said many times and I will say many more times I am sure - the single most beautiful woman in the world and God knows I don’t deserve you….but…I am ever grateful in my thoughts and my prayers every single day - that for whatever reason you chose me to love…you amaze me everyday - and yes, you still do take my breath away - every day - in so many ways. You are without a doubt - the beat of my heart and the love of my life and I adore and cherish everything about you. Yes, we both fall short sometimes - I believe that is called being human….but the falling short is never on purpose and we grow in so many ways in spite of our humanness sometimes….and, I don’t care a bit that I sound sappy or mushy - I love you without hesitation or reservation til death do I part - and I am not in the least bit embarrassed or ashamed or timid to say it and say it with a smile in my heart…I love you. Just. Always.
I never (ever) want to take what we share - you or “our” love for granted - I know that I have at times - that (human factor) again…
…but, I should say it is never my “intention” to take you or our love for granted - because it is indeed - rare - one of a kind - and beyond description - I know that I am not perfect…but, I can and will promise you that I will always love you and care for you in the best way that I know how - and will love you and care for you to the best of my ability…I will never stop working at being the best man that I can be for you - for us…no matter what…because you, my incredible woman….deserve every happiness that life can bless you/us with…you are yes, an amazing woman - beautiful beyond comparison…the beauty of who you are inside - cannot help but be reflected in the beauty of you on the outside and I am so proud of you in every way. always. I love you, sweetheart. Just. Always.
So, on this very not so ordinary Sunday - I send you the song that I have left for you more than once and played for you when I asked you to marry me….its just as true now as it was then as it will be 10 -15 - 50 years from now……there truly is nothing I wouldn’t do for you - to make you feel my love……
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RC31OtiCusI
I am indeed as I have also said many times - but, 'tis true. The single most lucky man in the world - to be blessed with your love. It is ( you - your love) the most precious thing in the world to me.......