[Orema]

Im up for a promotion and it's on my mind this morning. Have been waitng since November-ish, and should know something soon. I'm incredibly impatient, so I have some anxiety and nervous energy ... I know there will be some talk, or maybe even grumblings if I get it. My manager has my back on this, but she's a decision maker and I'm part of her team that executes her decisions. I have to work with the grumblers to execute her decisions and am now wondering if it's worth it.

For me, it almost doesn't matter what daily challenges I face in my work, but what is really important is if I can get people outside my department to work with me in solving problems. It's easier to get people to work with me if they aren't angry or annoyed.

This is in the context of me working in a department that doesn't generate revenue--all we do is spend money and we spend lots of it, so we're already getting cock-eyed looks.

I'll be glad when this is over and I don't have this concern flittering on the edges of my consciousness