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RockOn · 01-12-2017, 08:50 PM

Not sure if it is from AA or NA (thinking AA)... but here is one that has saved my butt so many times:

"pause when agitated"

I did not go to treatment. One day I told myself I had had enough, picked up the phone and found a meeting to go to.

I did not have a clue what I was getting myself into. I was scared to death but went anyway.

So thankful I noticed the downward spiral had picked up excessive speed there towards the end. Humiliation had become the key feature in my life.

Years before, a seed had been planted. I was waiting my turn for a haircut and while pretending to be engrossed in a magazine, eavesdropped a conversation from the woman in the chair. I remembered how impressed I had been with the things she said about 12 step groups and recovery from mind-altering addiction.

I had had enough pain.

A friend of mine, precious young 26 year old gay man, died of a heroin overdose last year. I have known him since he was about ten. In fact, both his parents are in recovery, met them in group ... that is how I came to know Ryan. He was such a loving little soul. Broke my heart when he died. So unnecessary.

Great thread! Thanks!

01-12-2017, 08:50 PM	#14
RockOn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: sitting over there ----->>>>> :) Preferred Pronoun?: .... Relationship Status: .... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .... Posts: 3,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,081 Thanked 10,308 Times in 2,609 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Not sure if it is from AA or NA (thinking AA)... but here is one that has saved my butt so many times: "pause when agitated" I did not go to treatment. One day I told myself I had had enough, picked up the phone and found a meeting to go to. I did not have a clue what I was getting myself into. I was scared to death but went anyway. So thankful I noticed the downward spiral had picked up excessive speed there towards the end. Humiliation had become the key feature in my life. Years before, a seed had been planted. I was waiting my turn for a haircut and while pretending to be engrossed in a magazine, eavesdropped a conversation from the woman in the chair. I remembered how impressed I had been with the things she said about 12 step groups and recovery from mind-altering addiction. I had had enough pain. A friend of mine, precious young 26 year old gay man, died of a heroin overdose last year. I have known him since he was about ten. In fact, both his parents are in recovery, met them in group ... that is how I came to know Ryan. He was such a loving little soul. Broke my heart when he died. So unnecessary. Great thread! Thanks!