It's funny, I never had any insecurities until the last relationship.
I am afraid to open up now. Kind of like "anything you say can and will be used against you". I won't discuss my fears or dreams too freely.
I have a fear of being cheated on. I was a VERY trusting person, now, I am not sure that I would ever be as trusting again.
I am afraid of not being good enough. I don't want to have to try hard to be someone I am not, just to be accepted or considered good enough.
I am now a runner. I was never a runner before but now, I look for "warning signs" and, even though I am not dating anyone, I know for a fact that the first time I saw even a smidgen of my ex in someone, I would run. I look for reasons to not be interested and/or to equate others with my ex....
I am afraid to give my heart completely because I am now afraid that my heart will be crushed without thinking twice.
I didn't realize that I had soany fears until I thought about it. The old me is definitely not around anymore. I no have that spark of fearlessness when it comes to getting in a relationship.
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