[gotoseagrl]

keep trying to rationalize with someone else's insanity. pointless.
totally forget to take care of myself while caring for another.
spend the rest of my life oblivious to my health concerns when i know they will catch up with me later.
let compulsive negative thoughts consume most of my energy.
let my past & what i cannot change continue to plague me.
live in any time other than now.
sacrifice my few moments of utter silence.
forget what brings me pure joy.
stray from my core beliefs - sometimes they are all i have.
close my mind to learning.
hold back the truth.
change who i am to impress someone.
be ashamed of who i am, no matter how broken i feel at the time.
be ashamed to walk proudly with & show affection to my Partner.
give in.
give up.

oh and ... ever be without kitties.