[s0litude]

I'm actually rather shy in person, bashful even and quick to blush. If I am really attracted to a woman, I will do one of two things: find it difficult to talk / go quiet (does not happen as often) OR ramble like hell-- "a mile a minute".

I like cars, especially the old muscle cars. But I am not comfortable driving because of my vision, and I'll go out of my way entirely to avoid driving at night.

I was brought up in the "Church of Christ" and questioned everything they told me. It used to irritate the hell out of the preacher. Later, I converted to Mormonism, was preparing for the priesthood and had a "crisis of conscious" because I am trans. Although the ward I was a member of didn't fully comprehend my situation, considered it a birth defect, and accepted me, I couldn't do it. I'm pretty much an Agnostic. I guess you could say I am still searching.

I was a nationally-ranked musician in high school. At one point, I even dreamed of performing in the North Carolina Symphony. I was offered scholarships that would have paid for everything but turned them down as I did not want to pursue a career in music. It's one of the decisions I sometimes regret in my past.

I never dated after I left home for college. I came out as a lesbian in college (had not accepted myself as a transman at this point), but I was too shy to date. Friends were so concerned that I wasn't even trying to date that they would try hooking me up on blind dates. The first time I even considered saying yes, the girl, Darcy, said I was too short: I am 5'5" and she was a few inches taller, like... 5'8" or something. Most of the women I have dated since that time, ironically, have been taller than me.