[Rook]

-- Walking, while thinking, walking until it hurts, or I'm tired...Without planning a destination , within reason, and returning when my mind is clear

-- Praying, talking with My Pantheon, ranting raving, respectfully of course{i don't need more problems y'know?}

-- Listening to Music...Loud..Loud...sometimes ground-trembling music, and dancing wildly until I collapse.

-- Long...Long-long-long-long hot Shower, it must be shower..not a bath, the water rushing down soothes within its hot wet embrace..Sometimes I don't notice the hot goes away, those are really bad days...

And finally

-- Make sure nobody is around, human or animal...And scream, shout, kick hit whatever is available, maybe break a few things that aren't exactly important but breakable.


Above all?...And this may sound selfish but, it's me...

I have to be left alone to do all this...The more I'm asked, or nagged, or pestered...The worse I feel, so I usually say "it's nothing I'll be fine" and walk away...
If I do see the other person is hurt because I supposedly push them away emotionally, when I'm calm and collected...I will sit with the person and explain and THEN we can talk about my bad day