Hang in there grenade, I know it isn't easy losing a client but you'll make it through, remember it's not you pulling the plug, that you have no control over but what you do have control over is how you respond. The most loving thing you can do right now for both the family and your client is to be there with them in their last final hour, whether that be in body or in spirit by either holding them up in prayer or keeping them close in your thoughts at the moment they make their transition. It’s going to feel lousy for a while but that’s okay it’s normal and natural to be upset about losing someone you have worked so hard to help be as healthy, well and whole - as physically able as possible, for as long as possible. You can go see them before they are removed from life support without having to stay for the event if helping with it goes against your conscience. If present you can always ask to step outside the room before they begin actually removing them off life support. However if you think because of your upset, your presence would make it difficult for either the family or your client or this is something you just can’t bear to watch because of either your particular belief system or your love/feeling for the client you don’t have to go. It doesn’t make you a bad person or a failure as a caregiver to either dread having to go through this or not feeling up to being there as they remove this person you care about so much off life support. Go with your gut and trust your instincts on it. I'm sorry for your loss.
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