[Bèsame*]

One of my resolutions for the new year is to work thru the stress of being a caregiver. I love my Mom deairly and I do everything in my power to make her life, easy, fun and healthy. But somehow, I think she wants to fight and argue. I'm realizing more and more I have a lot of the same personality traits as my Dad. I'd say the last 10 years prior to her coming to live with me, she resented my Dad for uprooting her from So Cali, getting sick and started up his drinking. I understand the move, but it didnt have to be so drastic. His health, men just think they are invincible. But the drinking part I'm clueless on. I grew up with him drinking all through my first 22 years. He finially stopped and he became the Dad I really didnt have. Maybe the dynamic changed with in my parents relationship? Towards the end of my Dad's life we all saw (my siblings) her resent him for his health and drinking and lash out and be mean.

Maybe I act or react to her efforts or lack of like my Dad? I talk it out all the time with my friends and I'm feeling like I'm burdening them at times. They always reassure me that I need to talk it out. I always feel better and my stress level goes down.
I have free resources available to me from both employers. I'm going to reach out and take advantage.

Surprisingly though, it's been a couple of weeks of niceness. Im not feeling taken advantage of. I know she knows she can be mean. Maybe?? Just maybe?? She is coming around? Anyways, I'm not going to be afraid to ask for help. Perhaps I can get another view on the situation if it arises again.