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So, a few weeks ago something happened which triggered my fight or flight, and PTSD symptoms have or are appearing.
Although I know its not my fault, I feel like it is. Like if I had been hyper-vigilant in the first place, I would not be feeling like this now...which, I know, makes zero sense.
I've been to therapy and am going again Wednesday. I burn Palo Santo and Sage and stretch and chill as much as possible. I'm even praying.
Today at work, I actually told a client she was lying to me (she was) and became angry so quickly, I had to walk away. I have worked here 6 years and never actually said that to anyone. I am horrified at myself...though, not in any trouble at work.
I am hyper sensitive and alert and since I am an empath on top of having PTSD, I am have even been feeling people's thoughts even more personally. Yay.....not.
I just am so frustrated. I will think my PTSD is under control, then something happens to trigger me. Do y'all experience this?
Wanted to vent a little, see how everyone is and ask if this seems normal?
Love and light to you!!!
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