[sierragirrl]

IYCSMN
I am not sure how proud of me you would be. Although I am sure if you were still around I would not be in the spot I am now.. over the yrs I have gotten more ink that I know you would not like..but you know me stubborn and if I want something bad enough I will get it, have always been like that my entire life.
You would see a child sleeping in a bed next to mine, I know you would love her. I was thinking tonight as I was driving J home how I should nick name Libby Karma she is a mini me. OY
I know if you could see us all now you would give Alli a big shove to get her life on track.
you would see that I am down 43 pounds, hair is longer then ever, i eat completely different, I can walk away from food without giving it a second look.I am not shoving my feelings down with food.
although I am eating healthier I am not eating nearly enough everyday.
soon my hair will start to thin out from not enough protein
I would rather be bald and healthy then have beautiful hair and be unhealthy.
IYCSMN
you would see I am getting stronger everyday, but fuck it still hurts