I know for a fact I'll be single for the rest of my life. I've met pretty much every butch here in Estonia, and lots of men as well.
Nobody wants me.
Everyone wants to chat to the pretty girls. I'm either one of the guys or invisible.
And that's with as much effort and money put into my appearance as I possibly can
So... Just taking it one day at a time, coping, trying to find comfort in alcohol and bars over the weekend, and sometimes into the week...At 21 the thought of a lifetime of this....I was born to suffer.
Pure hell.
Whenever I see couples I feel so much pain I want to strangle someone, seriously. And I'm about as cuddly and nonviolent as you can find. But we all have a breaking point.