I have learned so much about myself this year!
I learned I need to be the Dominant in a relationship.
I learned I need to be in a female run relationship...meaning regardless of what gender I date, *I* am the one who leads in the dance
I learned I need to be the lead in bed too. And I need to be with someone I can reciprocate sex with. While I have enjoyed my time with Stone Butches, I know to be sexually satisfied, I need to be the one giving. And if *I* feel like it, he can give back.
I learned I need this to be a 24/7 in and out of bed
I learned I am not shy sexually and certainly not submissive. Assertive doesnt even begin to define what I am in this realm and trying to be anything different (a role I was taught to play from childhood) just wasnt working for me
I learned that I am still coming into myself and am single for this reason. I dont want to mull it over while engaging with the energy of another person.
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Pole bachit, a lis chuye.
The field sees, the forest hears
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