[JDeere]

Tired, not just physically but emotionally and mentally as well!

Learning to heal, accept what happened and move past it or work towards moving past it, has run me down.

I went on my trip and saw my birth father's grave, shit really hit me then! I apologized to him for cursing him for years, apologized for how much of a bitter old bitch my birth mother was to him and me.

Alot more truths came out in the past 6 months, I found out the true reasons why I was put up for adoption, as well as more past family history. It has been alot to take in and process, but I'm working on it.

After not knowing for 30 plus years, where and whom you come from, all the previous thoughts and feelings fade, change, etc....

Alot more time is needed, to heal.