[BoiJen]

Most of the poeple who know me would say that I am too honest. It always seems to get me around nowhere. I put my heart into a lot of things when I shouldn't, and part of that is always being honest and true. I've tried dating, and when asked, I always would tell that person that I do see other people. It is deeply ingrained in me, and it's how I was raised. It seems some people can make a mountain out of nothing, or they listen to others. You must do what you feel is right, but sometimes what you feel can be wrong. I've been there. I knew what was right, and I failed myself. Sometimes you have to risk it all to get where you need to be and what you deserve, and that's not usually an easy road. Although I was down and out, struggling, I made sure to always try to be the best I could. I never lied, stretched the truth, or did anything to abuse the trust. When I can look you in the eyes and tell you something, I mean it. I kept saying I was always there and would be, and I was. The hard part is that I still am. I have my assumptions, but for once, just once, I would give anything just to hear it from you. I never betrayed you or who I was to you. My arm still holds you.