I was diagnosed with PTSD in 1994, when I was seventeen years old.
My worst symptoms are hypervigilance, nightmares, insomnia, anxiety, and emotional avoidance.
I also have survivor guilt, although that one is tricky because the person I survived was also the perpetrator of the trauma. Once I got over the initial relief that he could no longer hurt me, the guilt over the fact that I should have somehow prevented his death set in. It's amazing to realize how many different things can be true at one time.
I've spent a lot of time feeling embarrassed about it and I'm done with that now. I've adapted, for the most part, and I have decent coping skills.
I can't date, though. I know I've joked with some of you about why I don't date, but the real reason is I just can't function in a relationship.
Yet. I still have hope for someday I'm just not there yet.