Oh ........ for about 4 years now. Never met in person. Just a photograph. Long talks on the phone. After all this time, now I'm having dreams about him and I together. Totally ridiculous. I have no idea what my problem is regarding this person. Must be a joke from the Universe.
I was jack lighted like a deer in headlights when I first saw his photo. He was jack lighted like a bull in rut when he saw mine.... and yet... nothing, nada, zilch, nunca, zero.
I cut my ties to him. Now the dreams have started. fuckmebuffy. It's worse than ever now.
The heart wants what the heart wants.
i'm so screwed
